Friday, March 24, 2006
7:23 PM
Sighz, this is my first post in like a million gazillion years. It was like 5 years ago when i started blogging and left it rotting on the interent. Oh well, let's not dwell on the past and move on. Shall we? It seems like it was only yesterday when i took my exams and wa-la, here are my results. Kinda disappointing, didnt get the distinctions which i was hoping for, ah-well, i cant expect that much since i only studied the day before and blacked out during a particular paper. Still it was a great imrovement from last semester and i didnt get any 'D'onkeys! WAHAHAHAHAHA!!! I'm the MAN, oh well, self-ego. Haha. So, these are my results,
MATHEMATICS 1 (COMPLEMENTARY STUDY) B
MULTIMEDIA COMPUTER B
JAVA PROGRAMMING C
DIGITAL MEDIA & DESIGN C
ELECTRONICS FUNDAMENTALS C
MATHEMATICS 1 C+
COMMUNICATION SKILLS A
SEMESTRAL PROJECT 1 P (note that this is only a Pass or Fail module)
Is nothing fantastic, but rather, utter rubbish. Everytime i see a C or below, i feel the pinch of not studying hard enough. Looks like i gotta shape up on my studies next semester, or i get shipped out. Ahh well, this aint the only thing that is like giving me a headache now. Well, i know that Zai told me not to put too much hope in this, but sometimes, i just cant help hoping, when things sometimes get too promising. But then again, this is could merely be an illusion. Sometimes i seriously wonder, why isit that i fell into this trap when i had warned, told and trained myself not to? Or are these tests set by Zai and Ah Pei to strengthen me further? Zai said, we were fated to meet, but the destiny to be together is dim, why isit that fate and destiny dont come together? Why isit that our paths cross as friends and fellow students, but not destined to get together? Why cant she just be frank with me and herself? Instead of going on a wild goose chase and giving people false hopes? I really dont wish to go on like this. Why dont you just tell me straight, instead of shunning me like i've got some contagious disease that would infect you if you even just talked to me? Look, even if you didnt like it, why cant i just even hear a thank you from you? Or maybe even just a 'Happy Birthday'? I've never done anything to upset you, save the time when we dragged you into the photo booth, which is considered a heinous crime in your '101 Things That Makes Me Angry' Book. Still, that doesnt warrant a total neglect and ignorance. Does it? If it does, i would rather you give me the death sentence as it would have lessen any emotional pain that i ever had. In any case, if there is anything that you wish to say about me, please, i beseech you for the hundreth time, please tell me frankly and not say one thing here and another thing behind my back. If it were possible, i would ask Zai and Ah Pei if they could send me back to the time when i first met you, and instead of all these awkwardness now, we would have been the greatest of pals, sitting down and laughing out butts out with some silly and cold jokes that other people will never understand.
Well, looks like that is about it for now. Gotta start shapping out. Swimming tomorrow i hope, if the weather is good.
im torn between
silence & violent expression
