Tuesday, March 28, 2006
10:27 PM
Why won't she give me and herself a chance? Must she really avoid me like this? Should i go for training tmorrow? But going there, means i will be seeing her and i really don't know what am i gonna do. Isit possible for me to meet her like when i meet her for the first time? There is also a high possibility that i won't be seeing her ever again. Her parents want her to quit, i don't know. What can i do? I'm in no position to say anything. But i hope that, she will stay on, yet i don't know if my wish will ever come true. Is the word, called 'hope' still in my dictionary? Even the once sparkling stars, that wouldn't dim out even in the darkest of the night is beginning to fade, and the once bright stars, are slowly disappearing. From a million to a hundred thousand, from a hundred thousand to thousands, and now, is mere hundreds, yet the stars are still diminishing. Soon, i could count them with my fingers. Does hope still exist? It is said that, as long as there is still hope left, one shouldn't give up. I never did, but it seems like hope is giving up on me, for even hoping for that chance. All i can do now, is pray that, she gives herself, and me one chance.
Am i asking for much? Or the impossible?
Tua Yah Pei didn't come down. I felt kinda disappointed, else i would have been able to ask Tua Yah Pei for some advice. I'm sure he would know what i should do, and would be able to give me some advice on coping with matters.
**Note: Tua Yah Pei is the one on the left, the one in white, while the other one, who's in black, is Di Yah Pei. Both are Hell Deities, and their duty, is to capture evil spirits, and lead those good ones to peace.
im torn between
silence & violent expression
